Fear is a very real, strong powerful force that the enemy uses to grab ahold of us, twisting our thoughts and mindset until we are paralyzed. I did not realize how much I let fear govern my life until today. Until I asked God with an open mind, what hinders me from hearing His voice. The answer i got back :;Fear in big capital letters, underlined for emphasis.
fear of letting go of what I know
fear of silence
fear of knowing the answer and not wanting to obey
fear of asking for help
fear of rejection
fear that God views me as low as I view myself
fear of a new identity
fear that I am not important
fear that i cannot change
All these fears have hindered me from fully accepting Gods blessings.
And sometimes God brings you to a point of brokenness, so that you can see how much He loves you and that He truly won’t relent until He has it all.
Today I completely lost it. Surrounded by three of my new friends, I was honest with them and God. The words and tears mixed together. I told them that I am so paralyzed by fear that I do not know how to let go and listen. I am so afraid that God views me as lowly as I view myself-which is not very high. And they prayed over me, while I cried uncontrollably. Then after, I prayed, declaring what they said over my life. I prayed, choosing Jesus over fear and choosing His identity.
Let me tell you, sometimes crying and praying is exactly what you need. Knowing that God is on my side and that He is fighting for me along with others is so huge. And I know, that it is going to be a long journey. That I cannot snap my fingers and my fears are gone. It is a process, but God is so patient and faithful. I cannot wait to learn to let go and for him to fully invade my life.
So dear friends, take heart! God loves you, and He wants to set you free. Go to him, and ask Him to show you what is coming between you. Ask Him to show you areas that you have not given up. He delights in you and wants you to live in freedom. You are set free, so walk in freedom!