Letting Go

Posted on July 28, 2019 by Timia

Standing on the edge of a field of flowers, their was a young girl who stood holding in each hand a glass cage that was filled to the brim with colorful butterflies. They are heavy, yet her grip remains tight … Continue reading →

Embracing uncertainty

Posted on July 16, 2019 by Timia

In the vast blue sea, there was a small sailboat, nestled inside of a plastic cup. It had just enough water to keep it afloat, and it was light enough to flow with the currents. It was happy, despite seeing … Continue reading →

Grace Abounds

Posted on June 27, 2019 by Timia

God’s grace finds us in the moments when we least expect it. The moments when we find ourselves fragile and broken and the ones where we feel on top of the world. It finds us in the dark nights and … Continue reading →

Here’s to 25

Posted on June 21, 2019 by Timia

I’m learning that It is okay to waver, to stand on the shore of uncertainty and doubt. To let the water wash up over and over again, the rythym of have echoing the beat of your heart. It is okay … Continue reading →

And Still We Hope

Posted on May 25, 2019 by Timia

Last week was rough. I had been feeling more sick than usual and pretty discouraged with not having answers. I was trying some dietary changes that initially seemed they would help narrow down the answers, or at least leave me … Continue reading →

Choosing kindness

Posted on April 18, 2019 by Timia

I got flipped off the other day. Which I am sure is something that does not sounds terribly monumental, but it isn’t something that happens to me often. And believe it or not, I have never flipped anybody off. It … Continue reading →

Praise often precedes the miracle

Posted on February 28, 2019 by Timia

Praise often times precedes the miracle. I remember repeating these words to myself a few weeks ago when I was sitting at a point of desperation and frustration. I wanted to believe that God would provide money for my colonoscopy- … Continue reading →

I so often find that I am afraid of life being messy. I love the pouring rain, the way it so effortlessly falls to the ground yet I hide from the thunder and the way it gently washes away the beautiful path that I have spent so long planning out.
My feet crave familiar ground, my heart thrives off of the ideas this world feeds us about what life should look like. I find myself content to settle letting my heartbeat slow down to match the cries of those around me, the ones who for so long have stolen my voice. Yet I am filled with this deep restlessness, my heart refusing to stay still because deep down I know that life is so much more then going through the motions.

Some days my heart is full of laughter and joy the words fill this blank canvas so effortlessly, yet other days it tightens from the brokenness that surrounds me trying to silence the flowers that have begun to grow in my heart.

How often do I run from this brokenness, the unanswered questions and the way life isn’t turning out how I expected. It is so easy to choose to slowly allow ourselves to become lost in society’s standards and ways of living. So often we run from the process of restoration because we have been told it isn’t possible and that to go deep is unnecessary because healing isn’t instantaneous. Everyone likes to talk about true love and fairy tale endings all the while carefully avoiding the process and the messiness that makes them all the more beautiful.

Yet when did the messiness in authenticity become something to avoid and why is it that we let the process of growth stop us from pursuing our dreams? Isn’t life so much more then finding momentary happiness and letting the pursuit of worldly things stop us from being real and vulnerable. You see, the true beauty to be found in life is in the imperfections and the way that our hearts were never meant to be hidden behind labels and contained by four walls. It is time to stand up and to be honest, to let people in and to go deep in love. In all honesty, yes people will hurt you and sometimes your life will go in a direction you weren’t planning, but once you embrace this and choose to still walk forward you will realize how little success and fame matter and that you were made to grow deep roots and to love boldly.

In the end we only really have each other and so in this beautiful journey it is time to let go of control and perfection and to step into the unknown messiness that is found in being human. We were made to breathe, to truly live and to dance in the rain without a care in the world. Life is messy and love isn’t meant to just fulfill you, it is meant to give you the courage to be real.

Embracing Messiness